it's been along time since ive been posting.
but i still have to summarize last year ..
CHAPTER WRAP UP
im happy.
the difference bewteen secondary school and primary .
it's a big difference.
and iLIKE the difference.
makes me feel .
NICE ! :D
so one day i was going to bandd last year,
taking the bus. ilooked out of the window.
saw my old class mates at the multi purpose court running about.
then i thought .
im so much happier in woodgrove :D
ive never regreted joinning bandd last year.
imay have my saddest moments, most of them.
ALOT OF THEM .
more then last year. in bandd .
BUT ihad the happiest moments in bandd
NOT TO MENTION
GIOVIALITAA `
so this is all i want to summarize.
iWAS happy
til disaster strikes this year.
THIS YEAR
so it's syf year,
and a senior,
working hard.
more hmwk,
harder subjects,
studying my head off.
so firstly. my classroom.
second floor..
no..
imean
iueeLURVEEttFACTIE !
so happy that makes me twit :D
my english and science teacher hates me.
wtf. who cares.
maths, yah i hate. but im liking.
it's easier then last year.
BUT.
ican do the questions.
but cant rmb fomulas.
thats why istill flunk my tests =S
geog `s nice !
but still misses mr shukor.
got addiktedd to maple.
which i used to say its lame.
omg. FEELING DESPICALBLE NOW !
so. from jan til today
im a ..
and there's left overs i like..
ishare them with you ;
andd some equipss ;
andd so im loving these stuff ! :D
okay. this 3-4 months of this year has been hard.
as mentioned. syf coming. school. and recently friends;
im kinda tiredd of having to go home and practice EVERYDAY.
and ihave been practice ever more little by the day.
im also hating the fact that everytime we get back from an exchange..
we are too be disapointed and stuff. cos we cant be what we want to be..
IN THE MEANTIME. there's once when i cried in an exchange.
which sucks.
ive been working so hardd. but my standardss' still the same.
while people reach for the stars.
and what i practice this whole time.
when weiyong come for practice a day.
he could be better then me already.
idont know why am i working so hard for bandd
i suddenly thought.
iknow it's ..
im suppose to. im a bandd member.
but that shouldnt be the reason ..
my passion for bandd has some sort of a faded away.
it's like .. getting a chore to go to band.
idont like it this way...
im starting to have this quit band thinking.
but .. aiyaa ISHOULDNT LAR.
ijust think ishould do it after syf or if icant get through it.
now even the people who drives me to stay in band..
to encourage me has done wrong .
binni , the always most perfect senior ithink in the band.
i dont feel that way anymore.
idont know why. but x -
aaron , he .. he has been encouraging me lar.
til this friends backstabbing me thing.
he turn his tables.
this is wierd.
and for my friendds.
they sort of makes me chiong for bandd lar.
caroline, valerie, siyuan, joyce.
these speacial people in my life.
ithought they were the ones that said " frenz 4eva "
with that kind of twitness.
idont know why i can accept.
iworked hard to accept the fact
that im a brass and all are woodwind"ers "
as this actually made alot of problems for us.
to admit. ididnt want joyce to joing bandd.
they were all saying that she's gonna join clarinet.
iwas dishearten lar. cos they always
clarinet clarinet.
and i always have to listen they say things that idont understand
but still laugh ;; and get scolded for laughing fakely.
iwas happy when joyce join flute.
not yet realising that she's still a woodwind.
so they continued to say things i dont understand and i BLAH.
iwas left out. they were sad. they were attituded.
im to be their slave. save them from that patheticness /.
when i was sad. angry. im to solve my own problems..
a well known sentence ; what are friends for ?
iwant them to ask them this question man !
what are friends to them.
im a friend to them.
but are they being friends to me ?
we used to practice together mah.
recently..
" you dont have too practice with us liao, we thought that you dont blend with us. you should practice with brasses. we are woodwinds you know "
"i understand. "
it was clear they had made this line very clear.
iwas very hurted.
and oh' they were ALL crying one day together.
were they putting on eye mo ?
joyce told me. people tell you a secret.
dont go spreading it.
oh' i understood, it's the fact that
caroline liked X-X
yah, i did tease her with that fact that she liked X-X before.
but seriously.
who was the only people who spread it. ?
her , herself.
she decided to "accidentally " let her seniors know.
idont know whether its true or not.
but hartini told me someone did spread it.
my conscience is clear.
IM NOT THE ONE.
GET IT?
YOU ! im not using vulgar.
cos anywayy , they were once my best friends.
so it all ended there.
few days later ..
aaron told me ..
he was asked to practice with them.
IFINALLY UNDERSTAND.
it's not that they think woodwinds and brasses cant blend.
it's because they wanted to get rid of me.
- writting til here. my tears. -
so, ifinally understand.
iadmit. iwas a lousy player.
a fourth horn. sounds low.
digusting to them .
in comparable to those
awfully high pitches of first / second clar-ers.
they needed something.
they needed a 3rd horn.
the second highest of all the horns.
they didnt need me.
so iwas the bad guy.
they needed to be good.
idont know what im saying.
but i know they think it's more perfect without me.
ihate band now.
idont want it this way.
idont want to say anymore.
life goes on.
they were once my friends.
idont want any hatred.
but . this is the most painful times
when iwas backstabbed.
they promised me " frenz 4eva "
soo those lies .
LIARS ! BACKSTABBERS !
omg, i know those friendster bitches say they hate them.
but it's really true.
they are the worst of homosapiens.
ineed to thanks may-en and michelle.
mayen for listenning.
michelle for thinking that everything would be fine for me.
but iknow life's different now.
iknow ispeak like the end of the world.
but iwas truly sad this time.
when everybody thought that iwas evil.
exposed secrets. backstabber .
while THEY acted innocent.
put on their eye mo
and shouted help.
when iwanted to scream for
"pls save my life "
to no one icould think of.
ineed a new blogskin.
this blogskin is too ugly.